Extreme STRESS

im really sad.
im down.
Why isit must be ME?
to put the blame on??
WHY??
i really dun understand.
isnt it not enough that i study hard and pass my exam??
you always asked me to study.
now is my holiday,i cant go out??
you said you've give up on me.
YEAH RIGHT.
yr SON is much more BAD than me??
i never tell u anything about it.
cz im not bossy.
but HE'S LIKE THE MOST EXTREMELY 38 people in the world.
ive ask you to cancelled my ticket.
I DUN WANT TO WASTE YOUR MONEY BA.
PLEASE.
two of yr SON is going to SINGAPORE and KOREA.
im the only one who stay here.
you NEVER think of this ma?????
WHY u can give them WHAT THEY WANT?
and not WHAT I WANT?
they fail their exam is like nothing to YOU.
but if i fail?????
YOU will FUCKED me up.RIGHT?
but they fail.u can say NEVERMIND?
i feel that from the beginning till now.
IM UNLIKE your DAUGHTER.
really.
others family.they usually go out with their family member.
EVERY WEEKEND.
DID YOU EVER BRING US GO OUT TOGETHER?
sometimes ive to ask my friend for dinner.
sometimes even i cook for myself,the fridge have NOTHING.
do you care?????
u still care?????
YOU ASKED ME TO GO STUDY OVERSEAS.
BUT,why isit not your SON to go 1st????
isnt he supposed to study also?????
WHY U SO WANT TO BE LIKE THIS?
you said next year if have no car dun go school.
WHY U CANT HELP ME SOLVE THIS PROBLEM?
instead u want to ask me to solve myself??
AM I A GOD?
i can solve this problem myself???
since i learn driving till now.
HOW MANY TIMES DID I USE YOUR CAR???
not until 3 times oh.
WHY?
cause i know if i use,you guys also need to use.
SO IVE BETTER GIVE IT TO YOU ALL TO USE.
YES.my friend pick me up.
WHENEVER THEY PICK ME UP THEY ARE MY BOYFRIEND?
THEY SURE IS GUY????????????????
WHAT U REALLY WANT FROM ME????????????????????
i really dun understand.
u know ma,i also feel so bad if my friend pick me all the time.
DO YOU KNOW?
DO YOU EVER THINK?
how SHAME of me.
why cant u give trust on me?????
WHY??????
i NEVER even lied you like your SON did.
PLEASE.
i really dun know what you want.
I DIN ASK MUCH FROM YOU.
i just ask you to care.
i dun need lots of money from you.
i wont ask.
i just need u to care me.
solve these problem for me
but WHY WHEN I TELL YOU.
YOU NEVER BOTHER????????????
WHY?????????????????????

văиεŚša ™ ♥♥♥

Wonderful start of december.

went to the manukan island with Jessica Foi , Yann Yuan , Lee Siew Li , Andrew Tie , Liaw Wei Jun , Jacob Lim..
so fun owhsssssss.:)))
i love them all..we went to swim together,look at fish together.shout together.
thanks guys for those sweet memories.
i love you guys.

văиεŚša ™ ♥♥♥

当我一个人时

我真的很想你...你还好吗？？
昨天和你聊了几句，其是我是很想和你聊的
可是你的信息给我的感觉你只是很闷才和我谈天的。
虽然我知道我没有哪个机会了，一切都是我不好。
从头到尾，都是我自己哪么笨。每天都在想你。
我知道我认识的你已经不是以前的你了
自从你去哪里以后，在不时以前我所认识的你
我的世界你也不在了。
不管发生些什么事，我答应我自己一定要勇敢去面对。
我一定要坚强。

văиεŚša ™ ♥♥♥

Specially For You.

有时我也不知到我这么样才能弄到你开心。
不管发生任何事,我都是一定永远支持你。
那不是结束因为一切都是须要时间来解角你的伤口。
可能他不属于你的，他只是曾经和你一起走过一断快乐的路。
别在想太多，爱是很自私的。
当我们很爱一个人,他们可能会放齐我们。
做个有用又坚强的彦媛。
跌到了要爬起来喔！
我爱你。

văиεŚša ™ ♥♥♥

Boring Monday.

today whole day at home as usual.
at night went to yumcha with friends. :)))
so ngam we go that place alvin's there.
so we met up.
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My dear yann,

be a tough gal. ♥♥♥
please gal.please be a tough gal.
dun cry anymore...
i maybe cant help you a lot.but i just want my babe to be the most tough ones.
i know u can de.im always beside to support you.
to listen to you.
to advice you.
i hope you will always listen.
i know what i say might not be true.
but i duwan to see you to be sad just like that.
do you know that??
dun cry.be a strong gal.
i know its hard.but can u try hard babe??
can you???
today.1 more month till yr bday.
im sure there will be lots of happiness.
yr just a happy go lucky gal.
i know you can be happy de. :)))
i trust you.
i may not know when youre crying.
but i will always lend you my shoulder. :)))
we laugh.we share.we talk together.
i miss our memories back in secondary school
where you always sit besides me.we can talk anything :)))
yr my bestest sister.
iloveyou more than anyone.

love,
vanessa
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dear,

dun be upsad about.please.
things can be discuss. :(((
hope everything will be well for you.
i will always here with you too. :)))
i will always pray for your job.
please dun be disappointed.work hard for something.
i may cant help you,but im here to be your best listener.
i know you can do it.jiayou!!! XOXO.

babe.. :)))

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văиεŚša ™ ♥♥♥